Monday, July 25

My Readers Are Beautiful!

Sorry I havn't posted in a few days! I wish I could say that I've been super busy, but truthfully I havn't.  I've just been lazy and not terribly motivated to blog about what a massive failure I am. Seriously, if I dont stop fucking up now, I will NEVER get to 115 by the time school starts. Six weeks, one day. Approx. 12lbs to go. Two pounds a week? Totally doable. Calorie loss of 1000 calories a day is actually considered healthy, right? Except all I do anymore is starve and binge, starve and binge. Ugh, I am such a fucking failure :(

COMMENTS!

Kate: Your work-out sounds awesome, thank you so much! The weather here has cooled down a tiny bit so I've managed to drag my fat ass out of the house for a jog :) Also, how does re-calibrating the scale work? Its my grandparents scale, so I cant take it apart or anything obvious, but if its just a button? Thanks for the comment!

Christina: Yeah, my Dad thinks its weird that I'm a 'twig' (totally not, but his wife loves to bake so in comparison...) yet I love to cook and watch the Food Network. Sometimes, if I have to starve to make up for a binge, I'll look at foodporndaily.com as an added punishment. Plus, its a good reminder of the stuff I can eat when I'm thin! And I'm trying to convince my mom to buy me a new scale, but I dont want to make it too obvious cause she knows I have/ had ED issues.

Wishes: Thank you for commenting :) I have an exercise ball, but I need to get more air pumped into it I think cause its kinda flat so I dont get much out of it. Do you have a favorite exercise ball work out? I havnt used it before haha not really sure what to do with it!

Jane: Welcome to my blog :) I will deffinatly get a new scale as soon as I have some money. Its crazy that I dont have one yet! And I know what you mean, about sometimes not wanting to think about food. Unfortunatly it seems to be the only thing on my mind these days!



So I was talking to my dad yesterday about what I can do to make myself stand out on paper when I apply for universities this year. Its pretty much all I can talk about anymore. Its driving me nuts and putting my anxiety levels through the roof. Gahh.

I want to be an investigative journalist. I think I want to start working for a newspaper when I graduate from uni, then, when I am more established as a journalist, try working with some film-makers and create documentaries. I love researching (I can spend HOURS or DAYS researching diets and such) so this was the most interesting career ambition I could come up with, and I love to write.

Anyways, my dad suggested I start a blog, and blog about something that interests me. He doesnt know about my blogging here, and cant ever know I`m back into the ED world and dieting and such. So I played along, and now I think I want to start a RL blog about vegetarianism and recipes and cool restaurants and such. Its funny the only thing I can blog abou or think about is food. Stupid food is my whole stupid fucking universe. Ugh. No wonder I am such a fat ass.
 Anywhoooooo... today is my doctors appointment. I have to talk to her about switching birth control pills to one that doesnt make me puke, and I have to beg for some Ritalin to make me skinny help me focus and manage my ADHD. I really hope she lets me do it. If she wants me back to monitor my weight because of my `previou`s disordered eating issues`then I will turn to Wintergirls for help. Quarters sewn into my pockets and clouds in front of my eyes...


I hope my lovely readers are all doing well. I`ve been trying to comment on peoples blogs as much as possible, but Blogger is a bit of a bitch sometimes. If you havn`t already, pretty please enable the name and url option for commenting, because otherwise I cant comment (my AIM is being a dumbfuck). Also, I added a content warning cause I`ve noticed I have a bit of a potty-mouth and the stuff I am writing about... isn`t something I want little kids finding I guess. But my beautiful readers, please have a wonderful Monday!

Question of the post: Did your last weigh-in leave you happy or disappointed and why?

xoxox Kay


1 comment:

  1. I hope everything goes well at the doctors appointment! I have to go back to see the doctor in the next few days but its ok, I'm seeing a different doctor.

    A food blog would certainly be awesome, maybe it's something that you can think about. I'd definitely read it.

    xx

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